HI!!!

I am REALLY sorry about that depressing and very worrisome post. I am better now and can actually read better...for some reason i get really depressed all of the sudden...i was hiding in closets again...and then i played chess (kind of anticlimactic huh...were you expected me to shoot myself??? THINK AGAIN!! I think shooting yourself would be a lame way to do....but don't jump off a building like Amelie's mom...no i didn't see it but i've seen parts and bits and snippets and teewigs--ha HA TEEWIGS!!!!)

ANyway, not sure how this happened but somehow after my prolonged absence, i have acquired more readers!!! Noah, is that you? Seth!! Are those Seth words I hear??? AlACk!!! And yes, faithful Mackenzie remains. (by the way what do you need to talkto me about...now i feel like i'm in trouble...ooh sucky)

Uhh..well the last two days i was sick VERY VERY sick yesterday i was having an awful time...today I'm better but still a little WOOH if you know what I mean (and if you don't then i can't help you. I mean,is it that important? maybe who knows i mean...hehe ya) so i refused to eat until my mom got me blueberry cake from starbucks (AHHH BLUEBERRY CAKEEE) and so i didn't eat until 1230 (!!!) but then i had my little cake and i played CHESS!!! HA!!!!!!!!!!!!! HA!!!!!!!

Buds, kalachuZAM y'all

You rogues! YOu! YOu vagabonds! MY FUTURE AWAITS

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i'm a tad suicidal and very very depressed. sorry i'm letting y'all down by not posting anything exciting or original but i'm just very depressed. since you're already reading all those other blogs that are depressing maybe i should pretend to be happy. but i don't feel like it. i'm just too depressed.
so like a month and a half ago was having this weird thing reading. like i could read but it was hard and ditracting cuz i couldn't read normally. AND I STILL CAN'T!! I HATE MY LIFE! AND NOW I CAN'T READ SUBTITLES!!! where did THAT come from? i could still read subtitles a few weeks ago. i'm confused and retarded eye doctor doesn't know what's wrong and i'm dying because i can't read. I can't watch Amelie. AMELIE IS MY LIFE! HOW CAN I NOT BE ABLE TO WATCH IT! I USED TO LOVE SUBTITLES

but now i can't read them

i hate this



so sad


someone
help

Incomplete

I feel very incomplete. I'm reading these other people's blogs and not only do I feel guilty because I'm fairly content, but I also feel stupid and trivial. LIke, I don't have these kind of problems and I'm easily made happy. I feel...very incomplete. Worthless. but the thing with me is...it's like that's ok. I'm ok with the simplicity of that when I stop thinking about it. But am I really living if I ignore these thoughts??? But that's just it...now I'll ignore THAT thought, and I'll be fine. I'm always fine.

Anyway, I revisited a novel I started writing a while ago and it's actually pretty good but it's confusing and I can't remember what the rest of the story was going to be, because it was complicated. It's really annoying.

I strongly recommend The Hours to everyone. It's STUNNING.