Thursday, July 2, 2009

I'm Back!

I re-discovered my blog after....1 1/2 years. Wowwwwww. And it's pretty clear that I'm going to ditch it again so I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts. Sumemer Musical Theater is about to start...I'm very excited and of course nervous, as per usual. I have a very...strong relationship with Summer Musical Theatre (I'm going to spell it like that from now on.) Strong is not the right word. Maybe the right word is pathetic...my, that's quite a difference. The thing is, smt has hurt me so much in the past, yet I still love it. I do not even doubt my all-enduring love, although last summer put out a little fire inside me. Perhaps I should blame Ryan? No, I don't think I should. But yes, I suppose you would not know this (it happened about 6 months after my last post on here) but I...wanted a part. Very badly. And I did not get it. It hurt a lot. And now, I'm almost completely over it and ready for another summer! Hooray! Am I apprehensive about casting? A little. But somehow I will always love you, summer musical.
I have recently taken some steps to become more of a performer and less of a person who tries to do everything and is only moderately good at each thing. SO. I...am in the process of quitting cross country...I may not go through with it. I feel horrible now, so we'll see how that goes.
My friend Paige and I are reading a bunch of plays and the drama club at my school is writing an original play! The last meeting went...alright, I guess. I was proud of my idea but we might not end up using it...so of course I got very upset and went to take a walk and no one knew where I was. Jordan sighed. But we still might use my idea!
I feel quite icky and unproductive because I have not been motivated to read any plays this past week. For shame. I feel better now, though, that I'm writing this post. Even if no one reads it.
I need to write, basically...it's something I just NEED to do. It's hard for me to get started....well, it's hard for me to get started on anything this summer, it seems. I've been mind-blowingly lazy. But SMT will revive me.
I don't like when things change, but they always do, don't they?
I've decided just today that I want to go to England for college but that's probably not going to happen, eh? I'm not sure why I said "eh" (I want to go to England, not Canada, after all.)
I wrote an ode to Julianne Moore for English but I'm not sure where it is. Perhaps I will post it on here or on a note on facebook.
I don't like paragraphs. Why did I make paragraphs?
I was just reading Mackenzie's old blog. Or her new one? I'm not sure. It's so odd reading old things myself and others have written.
I can close my eyes and see Broadway. And it seems intangible.
Suddenly, I taste sushi! How exciting.
That is all I have to see for now. Perhaps I will use this as a place to write every day after SMT. Because I'm SURE you care so much :)